It’s fascinating to me that the better my life is going, the harder it is to analyze the thoughts and notions within my mind.
Yet when I’m sad or anxious, self-analysis and philosophical inquiry is a breeze!
Maybe it’s simple laziness.
Perhaps I can’t be bothered to dig into difficult questions unless I really have to; unless my very existence seems contingent upon approaching answers to those questions.
When you are getting what you want, there is no survival pressure to question or examine whats going on. Why examine pleasure, and risk tarnishing it?
One does not consider the mechanics of walking until confronted with unstable, hazardous ground.
There is one comforting conclusion I can take from my thoughtless, lazy condition; that self-examination and philosophical analysis are the results, and not the causes of my negative states.
Self-sabotage hides in waiting for those who feel uncomfortable with their own success and resultant satisfaction. If you are identified with the chase of positive emotions and high social status, you will knock yourself down again and again in order to maintain the identity of the chaser.
Unable to stand naked without the lack you think of as the essential driving force behind your personality, you will destroy all gifts you are given, and fill in all the ditches you’ve dug.
You will pursue the zero state as fiercely as you did the dreams you thought you wanted.
The zero state is not difficult to attain. It is life’s default. If you are not careful, you’ll be back there in the blink of an eye.